Believe dreams come true...because they do every day!!!

Today I a get ready to go into work at a normal job I sit and ponder all the blessings God has bestowed upon me. I don't have this amazing car or work making great money, but I am in the process of my dream coming true and not many people can say that. My dream is to be in Africa making a difference in the lives of the forgotten, and it's so close I can feel it. Not many people even get close to living their dream...why? I guess to some people to live in a 3rd world country is not dreaming to big, but are all dreams based on monetary worth? What about the dream of having children to a barren woman, or the dream of hearing to a death person what value can be place on something that all the money in the world can't fix? Think about your dreams...what are they worth? will they live on after you? But more than anything believe that your dream in attainable. Believe dreams come true...because they do every day!!!!

Oh Glorious Freedom

Today I realized that I take the freedom I know in the Lord for granted. I take the pleasures of dancing before him in my church and being able to worship him for granted. Some people don't believe you should dance before the Lord, I believe differently. This morning God really opened my eyes to "religious bondage". It's one of those things I have heard but never witnessed. My heart is now heavy. I believe in worshiping the Lord with everything in you and I have often heard "If you don't know where he brought me from, don't judge my worship." I dance because God brought me out of a place that no man could have. I dance because he has done so much for me and he deserves everything I can give him and more. Oh but I dance because I have been set free by precious blood. If you think my dance is undignified, you ain't seen nothing yet!!! I refuse to let human rules put a boundary on how far I can go with my God.

Only the Begininng

As the time for Africa draws near, God continues to do some things in my life before I set foot on the mission field. With the trip on 6 weeks away I have noticed my car rides with God are becoming more intimate. Now to some that last statement is completely weird, but to others they know what I mean. For some reason unknown to me I tend to have my most intimate moments with God in my car, and God has been using this time to heal some hurts I thought were long gone. So late last night as I drove home I began to ask him why? I thought I had covered those memories with enough good stuff that I would never have to deal with them again...and here they are. And in a still quite voice he reminded me I was going to teach the hurting how to find healing through him, and I hadn't done it myself. There is just something so amazing that out of all the people in this world God takes time to personal come meet with me and help me understand what he wants to do in my life. This reminded me of the story in Matthew about getting the plank out of your on eye before getting the speak out of your brother's. I had realized that going to Africa would change me, I didn't realize God would start before I put my feet on African soil. I can see this is only the beginning, God has brought me so far and I have still have a long ways to go. But I'm doing this all...Just to Save the Lost.

Letting Nothing Stop Me

Life can be so crazy and so much stuff can be thrown your way in a single day. Sometimes I wonder how the strongest people can even make it through some situations. But one thing I have learned though all the long nights, the tears, and the heart aches is to push through. I have 2 reasons I am on this earth: One to bring glory to the name of Yahweh, Two to save the lost. If I allow any of my goals in life to interfere with his purpose for my life I am not following his will. The scariest place one can live is out of the will of God after knowing the truth. There have been many times when all I wanted to do was live a normal life, like I did before I knew God. But he has often reminded me I wasn't living, I was dying. I will stop at nothing to bring glory to his name, and see his people saved. The word tells us in Rev. that the second death nothing to those who have been crucified with Christ. I'm on a mission... Letting nothing stop me!!!

Our Father

I sit and I realize that stepping into something new is not always letting go of everything old. God is taking me into a new season of my life, and although it's taken months I am not ready to step in. He has really been dealing with me about how I think of myself, I can't expect others to think better of me if I don't. In the past month he has really opened my eyes to the amazing people he has placed in my life and reminded me each and everyone is there for a reason. It has also become clear to me that I come in contact with so many different people everyday for a reason. My life has a purpose and even if it's working at a restaurant and letting them see the way I live of going on the streets and telling kids Jesus loves them I'm always ministering his love. Over the past 8 months I have come to realize that it's not about being perfect, but about being his. It's not about people thinking I'm cool and having the best life, but about reaching the ones that others would call unreachable. This life is not about my career, who I become, or even who I marry but it's about doing his will and that is to bring heaven to earth.

A New Leaf

So here I sit with an awesome family (the Roscoes) really loving my life at this moment. I guess how I ended up here would be a good way to start this blog.
 About 6 months ago (Sept. 5, 2010) to be exact I knew my life was falling apart.Previous to this day I was a 19 year old youth leader, going to school(to be a teacher), teaching color guard(my dream job), and dating the worship leader of our youth band( who was seemingly perfect for me). What can I say life was good...or so I thought. See the thing with God is that stepping outside of his will is dangerous, and he will bring you back to reality way faster than you could every imagine. Anyway back to Sept. 5th. It was a Sunday so of course I woke up went to church and even though my boyfriend was visiting another church I knew I was where God had placed me. After an awkward weekend I received a text that said, "No offense, but I'm just not sure about us." Funny right? None taken. This is a guy who a week earlier wanted to marry me, but in my heart of hearts I felt it coming all along. So after driving praying and lots of tears we broke up. This was just the start of the crumbling stage as I like to call it. So for two weeks I went to awkward Wed. night services knowing somehow it had to get better. On the 3rd Wed. after the break up my youth pastors and Spiritual Parents decided to resign their position because of the non unity in the church. What was I going to do? This youth group was my life...I cried. We all cried. As if that wasn't enough on my way home from church I received a text from one of my students saying, "I'm going to miss you." So this apparently meant I was fired. My Boyfriend, My youth group, and my job all gone in less than a month.
The following Saturday I decided to come to Fort Mill with my old youth pastors to help a woman of our church move. She was starting a missionary internship that she had told me about many times, but I ruled out because of the cost. The weekend was awesome I met some amazing people and when it was time to go back to Anderson I didn't want to leave. Before we left an offer arose to let me do the internship on scholarship. They would help me find a place to stay even a job. So after lots of thought and prayer, I decided to miss this opportunity would be stupid. God provided me with a place to live and an awesome roommate who I lived with for 5 months, a Job, and I had an awesome church family. Life was Good. Until my hours got cut at work and I started missing home( which was 2 hours away). I was ready to pack up and leave. But I'm suppose to be here. So this family offered me a room in there house and made lots of accommodations so I could live here. I am blessed. But I know the promise. I must stay in his will!