How am I suppose to heal?
Lately, this question has been in the back of my mind.
Do you ever feel like as you are walking into a new season
of life you can still feel the wounds from the last season? If you’re like me,
you can still feel them from a couple of seasons. Weather the season was bad or good I have always
left with wounds, some more direct than others.
It’s usually not until I revisit that area of my life that I notice…I’m
still bleeding.
I am currently walking into a new season of life, one that I
have prayed for and waited on, only to get here and realize… I’m still
bleeding. Another thing I have realized
is it doesn’t make this season any less exciting or worthwhile, God has brought
me here and now I am to fight for this. That’s biblical right? No one was ever
given a victory without a fight. So I’m willing to fight and I’m will to work,
because this is what I’ve prayed and hoped to be given. That doesn’t change the fact that…
I need to heal. I’m still bleeding. So I find myself at
random moments throughout the day falling at the cross and seeking my God,
because I know that’s where healing happens.
In my short 4 year journey as a Christian God has healed me
from many things. I have watched Him take the girl I use to be and turn her
into a testimony. So why didn’t he touch this wound? Why are some areas of my
life still bleeding?
I keep hearing that I serve a God who requires
obedience. He loves me and wants me to
walk in healing, but sometimes he needs me to learn some things…so he takes me
through some things. I won’t ever know that I should apply pressure to stop
myself from bleeding, if I don’t ever bleed.
When you apply pressure to stop the bleeding it hurts at first, but
eventually the bleeding stops and you know you will be okay. The bleeding has
to stop before you can apply the Neosporin to help it heal.
Maybe that’s what this new season is…pressure to a wound
that needs to stop bleeding. I believe
that soon I’ll stop bleeding and at the cross I will find my ‘Neosporin’. It
may be just time with God, it may be a person, or even a new form of worship.
Maybe this is how I heal. Apply pressure.
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